liz*15goingto16

Now its my turn to take the handwriting test =D Happy early b-day to me, Happy early b-day to me, Happy early b-day to Alice...Happy early b-day to me! I am one lucky gal to have my b-day as the same day as English O level = Shoutouts to Zhu!Cheegake!Meiyi!Shinmun!Gladys!Peiqi! for being the scorpio babies! Wish ya all the best for the dreaded Os =D Will be on hiatus for a while so yup. (p.s some parts of the handwriting test is not me. im sure couleurs will agree. i hope =)

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Alice has no white space or margins on a typical sheet of paper. Alice fills up every last inch on the top, right, left, and bottom. Hmmm. If this is true, then Alice has a very aggressive personality toward others and quite frankly lacks a bit of respect for the space and property of other people. I would be surprised if Alice just comes into someone's home and helps herself to a drink in the refrigerator. This can be both an obnoxious personality trait and it can be assertive and effective in getting what you want. There isn't much fear of getting in trouble here, Alice finds plenty of reasons to break the rules and get in trouble. (Okay, perhaps when she was younger, not anymore?) Basically, people with no margins are a handful.

Alice has a very unusual lower zone y loop. If the data input is correct, Alice's y or g is large and has triangle shape to the lower loop. This is not a common trait, but the implications are very interesting. As you begin to study handwriting analysis, you will learn any loop indicates imagination. This lower loop indicates the amount of imagination Alice has regarding sex and physical things. Her lower zone stroke is large, so her sexual imagination is large and open. Furthermore, because the loop has a triangle shape, this indicates a particular curiosity with certain aspects of sexuality. In a nutshell, Alice is open to some very new ideas sexually and is willing to try anything once. I'd say Alice is quite a dynamic and playful lover. Watch out world!

Alice exaggerates about everything that has a physical nature. Although she may not intend to deceive or mislead, she blows things way out of proportion because that is the way she views them. She will be a good story teller. This exaggeration relates to all areas of her material world. Alice allows many people into her life because she is accepting and trusting. She is sometimes called gullible by her friends. That only really means that she trusts too many people. Alice has a vivid imagination.

Alice has a temper. She uses this as a defense mechanism when she doesn't understand how to handle a situation. Temper is a hostile trait used to protect the ego. Temper can be a negative personality trait in the eyes of those around her.

Alice is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

Alice's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Alice that she wasn't a great and beautiful person, and she believed them. Alice also has a fear that she might fail if she takes large risks. Therefore she resists setting her goals too high, risking failure. She doesn't have the internal confidence that frees her to take risks and chance failure. Alice is capable of accomplishing much more than she is presently achieving. All this relates to her self-esteem. Alice's self-concept is artificially low. Alice will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because she is afraid that if she makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Alice to plan too far into the future. She kind of takes things on a day to day basis. She may tell you her dreams but she is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud she speaks, look at her actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Alice is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.

Alice is a cumulative and procedural thinker. She likes to have all the facts before making a decision. She thinks or creates much like a brick mason, stacking fact upon fact. Her thought pattern or the conclusion will not be complete until the last fact is in place. Like that brick wall, Alice learns faster through visual demonstration than through quick verbal instructions. Once she has learned new material, and understood it, she won't forget. Alice is a methodical thinker, therefore she is able to build things and come up with new ideas. In an argument, she often loses to rapid thinking people because she is thinking thirty minutes later about what she should have said. These people often are very booksmart, but can be out-gunned in a rapid fire verbal debate. She may learn new ideas at a slower pace than other "less detailed" people, but once she gets it, she can handle repetition. Some people hate jobs with too much repetition, she can handle it better than most.

Alice is secretive. She has secrets which she does not wish to share with others. She intentionally conceals things about herself. She has a private side that she intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in her past.

Alice will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Alice believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.

Alice uses judgment to make decisions. She is ruled by her head, not her heart. She is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see her as unemotional. She does have emotions but has no need to express them. She is withdrawn into herself and enjoys being alone. The circumstances when Alice does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets her mad enough to tell her off, she will not be sorry about it later. She puts a mark in her mind when someone angers her. She keeps track of these marks and when she hits that last mark she will let them know they have gone too far. She is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All her conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. She is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, she has poise. Alice will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. She would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, she will show her love by the things she does rather than by the things she says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because she feels her mate should already know. The only exception to this is if she has logically concluded that it is best for her mate to hear her express her love verbally. Alice is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to her, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of her sound judgment. She will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. She will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and she will always ask "Is this best for me?"

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Alice doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

29 October 2004*12:26
love keeps liftin us higher

*shu

this came from the comp. wow:

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Shuying has left lots of white space on the left side of the paper. Shuying fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Shuying has a healthy relationship to the past and is ready to move on. The right side of the page represents the future and Shuying is ready and willing to get started living now and planning for the future. Shuying would like to leave the past behind and move on.

Shuying has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.

Shuying is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

Shuying's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Shuying that she wasn't a great and beautiful person, and she believed them. Shuying also has a fear that she might fail if she takes large risks. Therefore she resists setting her goals too high, risking failure. She doesn't have the internal confidence that frees her to take risks and chance failure. Shuying is capable of accomplishing much more than she is presently achieving. All this relates to her self-esteem. Shuying's self-concept is artificially low. Shuying will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because she is afraid that if she makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Shuying to plan too far into the future. She kind of takes things on a day to day basis. She may tell you her dreams but she is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud she speaks, look at her actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Shuying is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.

In reference to Shuying's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Shuying slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project. She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Shuying can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Shuying is secretive. She has secrets which she does not wish to share with others. She intentionally conceals things about herself. She has a private side that she intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in her past.

Shuying will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Shuying believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.

Shuying is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes. Shuying will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Shuying an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other. When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Shuying is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story. Shuying is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Shuying doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

23 October 2004*23:09
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*shu

im easily swayed. im easily influenced. ppl tell me smth i'll believe, i'll follow.

during combined sports meet i felt really homely sitting beside the hc snrs. so, i decided i want to go hc.
then aftrwards, i read up abt rj and realised tht they have a good science program, esp for medics. so i wanted to go rj.
then, my prelim results came out and i screwed up. so i felt that i shld just settle for sa.
then, cheng kinda psychoed me into thinking that ac is not scary aftr all,and that it is a better school then sa, so i wanted to go ac.
then, my senior told me that want take 4 subj in ac got certain cut off point, then i worried i cmi. so i decided to just go sa.
then, today went to hc open house. went to the artroom. cant really describe the joy in my heart. its like, the joy of going home. hc is..my place. home. the art room is my sanctuary. home.
and so im appealing hc. and its like i basically went one BIIIG round. why am i so. traitor-ish. isn't it natural for a ny pri, nyg girl to go up to hc? its almost, d-u-h.
hc is so home! its really nice going arnd the school, seeing familiar faces, waving saying hi, smiling at snrs. wow. its really. warm. nice. (:
just praying that my appeal successful lah.haai. and that i'll have better time management in jc..to cope with art.

i want the scholarship man.

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but do i really want to further my aep? though i'd have the advantage over gap(dont take v&c) and e chi high students(they dont do intl art movements in lower sec). i look at the snrs work and go like, woaah. i cant. draw. as in. guess what maine said had never left my head. my drawings look like the thing that im drawing. but its not a drawing. no personal touch, cold, replica of what im drawing. flat, cold, boring blended.
sterilised.
sigh. and do i really want to. stay up late for art, have heart attack rushing art for a's? i must admit i like art. fine arts. but..i know myself. art is not 100% talent. its more of hardwork, striving to improve one's skills, the eagerness to learn and the openness to artistic influences and critic. but i dont even have time management! also. if i were to take aep, i'd have to sacrifice one core subj..which means no more trip science math. and i dont think i have the calibre to be a crazy trip science art student. i'll just die. haaaaai.

22 October 2004*16:18
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amelia*

SHITTTTTTTTT!
i just quarrelled with my mom over your work
great...
haha.
u owe me one shuying
BEEG TIME

18 October 2004*07:10
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amelia*

finally posted somethin at san-barh.diaryland.com
check it out. (:
just shun away from the time i blogged it

17 October 2004*04:50
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*shu

Five Things You May Not Know About My Time In School Are:
1. i prefer wearing specs than contacts to school cus i'd be piaing some stupid thing the night before and hence cannot open my tiny eyes
2. err. i msg under the table? (doesnt everybody)
3. my blouse and skirt are 2 sizes apart.
4. i sit between ziying and jolene, behind hengwei and infront of bernice
5. i eat Local Delight 90% of the time. its the maggie mee, chicken, curry veg, and veggie combo. ive been such a loyal customer that my order is printed on my face--the auntie see me then will prepare what i want, without asking

Five Things You May Not Know About the Job (Jobs) I Have (Or Had) Are:
1. i used to work part time for my mom as an abacus teacher
2. the biggest hosting job i got was at meritus mandarin
3. i really like my job, as an mc lah.
4. another memorable job was the sec4 formal dinner. i had to keep smiling even though it was a terrible night. i was crying.
5. --

Five Things You May Not Know About What I Do In A Typical Day Are:
1. i must shower before i eat dinner
2. i must talk on the phone at night
3. i go to school in daddy's car.
4. i take bus home from school.
5. i tell my friends i love them. (shld try extending tht to my family too. hmmm)

Five Things You May Not Know About My Online Life Are:
1. i dont use screen names
2. every time i come online i'd be at friendster, couleurs blog, and msn.
3. i dont chat in chat rooms.
4. i display my stats as "busy" even when im not
5. i use more than one password for my diff accounts

Five Things You May Not Know About My Home Life Are:
1. i wear tiny shorts
2. i wear a hair band
3. i dont bother to comb my hair
4. i sleep too much
5. i have a maid who's much shorter than me

Five Things You May Not Know About Where I Live Are:
1. its abt. (i have no sense of distance). very very close to the mrt. i have no idea how many metres is that.
2. the blocks are creamy white in colour.
3. there's a jacuzzi pool and i know where the secret switch is
4. the gym overlooks the pool.
5. there's a squash court.

Five Things You May Not Know That I Desperately Want Are:
1. 6 points
2. 6 points
3. 6 points
4. family to accept Christ
5. overseas scholarship

16 October 2004*19:15
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*shu

you are so funny liz. eliminated? awww! im trying to appeal hc lah. TRY.
anw i was in sch the whole day. and mrs tan was so nice. i shall not spell out explicitly what she was nice abt, cus if other aeppers read then not fair mah! hahaha.
i love mrs tan.
oh yes, liz i understand your thing for the charming type. like a certain young inspiring studied at same sch as tang da wu kinda artist i know of.hmm.
lalala.im finally finishing my coursework. thank GOD.
but it also means ive got boards to pia now. -_- tatas! see ya girls on mon.
i hope 4/8 missed me. ive hibernated long enough!

16 October 2004*19:07
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liz*

Gals you guys went NJC open house righty =) hoped you guys had fun cuz i did at VJ =D
anyway i saw the six mass dances and it was uber uber cool. Quite a few nanyang people went but the majority was dunman high, anglican, chung cheng and st nicks so it was like a rojak feast. The JC people were pretty enthu about the whole thing and even the principal is super hip lah. anyway i got asked by the ICOM students to joing their cca THREE TIMES! Do i look like a computer whizard =( There was free ice cream and it tasted great =D As usual i tried to utilize my eagle eyes and watch *ahems* BUT unfortunately there wasn't much to catch. The guys there are pretty good looking BUT they are the sporty and playful kind so it kinda clashes with my intellectual charm standards. so a NO for me =P The uniform is a yes though and the girls really got the legs to flaunt in their altered sch skirt. anyway after open house, instead of being indecisive, i actually found it easy to eliminate vjc off my list. Hoped nj has given you a better perspective of their sch and study hard dears =D Sigh back to physics.

16 October 2004*16:46
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*shu

pink red roses soft
light door bright
shining
alone afraid
walk no go go go
away fear reach
shrinks glow see not hear not
bright
step scared

turns away.

16 October 2004*02:14
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liz*

you naughty girls. tmr it's my turn to pon. MUAHAHA
hope you guys have been coping on well with the revision and quoting mrs soh today, "Don't burn out before exams".
Maybe i've been too caught up with my own work to actually spend time to ask you guys how its going. I can feel, through the sisterly-psychic pathway, that all of ya need some LURVE from me. hehe. Never too good to have too much adrenaline too early so while you work hard, you guys must rest well, watch tv and SING! Anyway i saw Mr Lim on TV and i was like O.o because its so weird to have a famous art teacher. He was a GUEST JUDGE on this channel 5 show and the credits never lie. Just a little trivia to spice up your day and i all wanna say is... don't miss me tmr =)

14 October 2004*21:50
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germ*

who can share my sorrow? the only one is gone, and the other is fine.

what do we mean when we say i love you or i miss you. i don't know anything. only that buried pain.
you know wounds that sort of heal and then rupture and then heal. that sort that leaves scars. the sort where when it ruptures it's painful, but it has happened so many times you just live with it. then everytime, the skin above it grows thicker and veiny smooth. but inside, when you aggravate it, it throbs again.

What do i mean when i say help me to forget? i know You did, it's just me who hasn't forgotten.

i know i'm impeccably childish. but sometimes i just want somebody to cry with me. someone with the same pain. you ought to be ashamed of me. i try to think i'm matured and know how to handle the missing. you must be ashamed of me, cos i reminded you of it. now.

but if i never hurt like this. i would be sad. cos it would mean i never loved you. but i smile that sweet wounded happy smile, cos i do.

14 October 2001*17:37
love keeps liftin us higher

shu*

):

07 October 2004*22:46
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amelia*

i'm using the emac now.. and the timing is all wrong! trying to change it cuz it dates back all the way to the year 2040. HURHUR.

study hard my ladies.
i really hope i can see you gurls in the same jc next year.
have to depend on my grades.
wish me luck* (:

7 October 2004*16:40
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liz*

to amelia: i guess i was annoyed at the fact that loads of people were " XXX definitely from city harvest one lah". don't need to brood over it k dear =)

Anyway I think my eldest brother is pretty cool. I used to think he was just an average guy after seeing his o level results slip filled with Bs and Cs but now I think he is very cultured and arty just like me. Funny what a 16-yr void can do to you. He actually knows who Dali is! (when he saw his work on one of my boards) Utterly amazing. And during his round-the-europe trip kindly sponsered by dearest mum and dad, he actually went to the Dali 2004 (some special tribute) exhibition in Barcelona and saw his paintings LIVE. I don't think he has any idea how badly i want to go there. And he is as jian and evil as me because he has DARN good resolution of A4 sized images of Dali's works by using *tada* SMU's high quality printer.('free mah') *sounds like who arh* =P Now he lent me this book about comic artists who take a surrealist approach on their work titled The Sandman. I have yet figured that book out but whilst typing my testimonial for chai lao, i am really happy that my brother knows art like me because how often do you have a sibling who knows who Dali is and has a geat collection of books for you to read when you feel like saving that amount of money for other material indulgences?

I feel like a lucky pig. =D

03 October 2004*18:16
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amelia*

to liz:
if you think i'm trying to condemn city harvest..
no i'm not.
cuz i've been to chc
and i love the experience i got there
see-ing you so happy in church makes me happy too
and that's an understatement

shouldn't have presumed jerry was from there
but it was just a mistaken assumation
if i offended you in any way..
i'm really sorry bout it.
it wasn't on intention.

03 October 2004*00:17
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liz*

For people who watch Singapore Idol, Jerry is not from City Harvest.
So before you think City Harvest is in some conspiracy, please note that City Harvest is not the only church in Singapore. The fact that he is christian does not conclude that he has the whole population of City Harvest supporting him. Jerry is a bad singer and i want him out asap but i can't help it if he has friends that support him all the way. I don't understand why people dislike City Harvest just by looking at its size and not by its ministry. I get irritated when people persecute my church because of secular activities and form their impressions by what they hear but not experience.
I'm a City Harvester and proud of it. I love my pastor and friends there very much because they are really amazing people. As christians, we have God on our side so do not be surprised at God's power to perform miracles in our lives.

03 October 2004*00:16
love keeps liftin us higher

'souls in the wind.must learn how to mend.seek out a star*.hold on to the end'

the sun will shine one day
(:


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