amelia*
it's almost 4 hrs to sunrise and i'm still comtemplating whether i should go to sch tml for tchrs day celebrations anot. *sigh. am i that busy? busy till i have no time to stop for a rest? i've seen myself slog all day and night these few days and being only able to achieve a certain amount of work -- in which halfway you just feel like giving up... but somehow this power of motivation continues me to strive on. (must be the constant 'jiayou-ing' i get from all those sms-es and ppl online) thank you YOU people! though i know i'm gonna disappoint you guys. ): *boohoo.
i think that tv breaks and computer breaks and snacking breaks. anything. just a break can do you GOOD! it just seems to be able to perk me up alil from that 15min of television. haha. and somehow.. u just feel so deprived of tv for that short moment. and while your family members are playing mahjong at grandma's place and your irritating brother is running around the house..kicking a soccer ball like a lunatic... you are finding yourself trying hard to concentrate. trying to shut out all the hustle and bustle of life. gaining deep in thoughts.
i recently turned my living room into an art gallery. my dad can't wait for my exhibition. oh right. nobody's allowed into the living area and i almost wanted to cordon off the area. on the floor..there are 3-4 boards neatly spread out. the others are stacked together cuz i have no idea what to stick on them. the coffee table is turned into my drawing table. i also have a lil stool to go along with the setting. paper scrapings all over. what a conducive place to draw huh?
dining area is my maths. humans. sciences area. whether or not the place is conducive depends on my mood really.
i feel totally crappy. maybe i should just close my eyes and drift off into my next life so i won't have to suffer so much now. at least i can worry... later.
my new love: 95FM love songs* (:
31 August 2004*01:54
love keeps liftin us higher
shu*
just went to check out vj's website cus kor was talking abt going vj and all. heard its pretty funky, but its sooooo darn far away! eunos know. hello? i like stay on the other side of the island lah! i'll like take decades to get to sch and decades to get back. siggh. though it sounds good, its really too far. so if i wanna take aep i only have 3 choices. nyj, nj or hcj aka hci. i dont really wanna go nyj cus its far. and for other reasons undisclosed in fear of getting my house burnt down. ok jk. and nj is just too close for comfort. separated by a fence only, its like. no change in environment at all! same bus stop, same place. am i really destined to stay in bt timah all my sching life? that leaves hc. hc's nice, really. but if i can make it to hc, i might as well go to rj. (traitor)
aiyah! like it makes a diff what jc i "choose" now. might not even be able to make it to a good one! ):
so anyhow. i was drinking ribena. do they have ribena on pulau ubin? im suddenly reminded of the ribena you always make for me. you lazy bum. just pour the syrup in add water and dump some ice. and you wont even bother to stir. aesthetically it looks great, the gradient and all. you said you like diluted ribena. but when it gets to the bottom its all sweet and concentrated what. silly. auntie daisy makes good ribena though. a lil too sweet at times, but nice.
but i guess its the slight tinge of sweetness that lingers, whetting your appetite for more.
or maybe they DO have ribena on pulau ubin.
30 August 2004*22:00
love keeps liftin us higher
JC open house!
okay couleurs, just check out the dates for as many jcs as possible and add on to this entry yah? let's go open house hopping tog! :D
16 oct: VJC
30 August 2004*21:49
love keeps liftin us higher
liz*
abbie's off today. thank god you've seen the message although the thing is still being left there. hope the tenant wont rip it apart but somehow give it to ya =) hope you are doing fine in shanghai and work hard girl =)
one more day till i get my phone back. its been a notorious weekend trying to contact people so the lesson learnt is: must memorize phone numbers! im so glad my dear phone is coming back to me.
today i finally tasted the sweet sensation of being appreciated as an artist. i know my standard and its always nice to be complimented by my peers and teachers that my sketchings are good but this was different. When Mr Ellis complimented my work, i felt the pride of an artist whose artwork is being appreciated by somebody who doesnt know who you are and its just a great feeling to hear the words coming out from his mouth. At that moment i honestly felt that i should become like Tan Swie Hian though i doubt i'll scale to his heights. When Mr Ellis told me that my work should be for my A level project, i replied I would not be taking art at A level, in which he just dismissed that idea and thought i was being nonsensical (sp?).
Anyway i do not wish to dwell too far even though i know the underlying meaning of it is to follow your heart. For now i shall just concentrate on my Humanities and hopefully the A1 is within reach.
back to diplomacy and deterrance for now =)
30 August 2004*20:07
love keeps liftin us higher
lizzie*
ABIGAIL WHERE ART THOU?!?!
please abi if you read this give me a sign because i need to know if you have gotten the message.
did you receive my voicemails?!?!? abi abi please god somehow make abi want to check her phone and visit her house once more. i left something just for you in the basement, inside the BLACK BOX and it is ESPECIALLY made JUST FOR YOU in which it includes all about me and you which means it has my address, phone no. and *gasp* PICTURES! so abi please please tell me you are gonna go back to your house and take out my thing that is in the BLACK BOX at your basement door there.
i really dunno what to do now after hearing you have already checked in the hotel so i just hope that you would use the airport's internet and read this entry and somehow assure me that everything is alright. tell me if you received it k cuz i dunno who is your new tenant and hopefully the new tenant wont be so free to stalk me or prank call me.
abigail please please go back to your house k? i really hope you can get the thing i made for you.
sigh but i think by the time u read this you are probably in shanghai.
how?!?! =(
29 August 2004*22:25
love keeps liftin us higher
amelia*
i don't like contacting lizzie without a phone. i bet when she gets back her phone...she will have a few missed calls from me. *sigh. but at least i can rmb her house number now.
i think i'm seriously screwed for my art. i have not enough research and yadayada. everything is just not ENOUGH!. i don't think i want to go to sch on tuesday for tchrs day celebrations anymore. ):
and why does everyone do stuff faster than me?!! argh. even yueyin and sylvia are finishing their canvas.. and helloo??? i start wayyyyyyy before them. i'm such a
oh. and for your info..the SCREAM is found and it is already destroyed. so sad huh? look here: scream article (koped from pq who koped from abi).
abi's leaving tml. so sad we can't send her off. i hope alice's present gets to her somehow. haha. and wishing her a bon voyage!
bye abi! take care! (:
slowpoke. (i choose to believe that i'm slow cuz i repaint over alot of times). yes. hiyah.
29 August 2004*19:57
love keeps liftin us higher
lizzie*
consequences of not having your precious phone with you
5. i can't contact germ aka inky cuz her house phone is put on voicemail and she never picks up her handphone calls cuz she only smses which i can't. HOW GERM HOW?!?! abbie's thing leeh? i got mine ready already
4. i learn how to move my house phone into my room to attain more privacy =) so smart =D
3. i called mingxiu to wish her happy bdae after moving the phone at 12.30
2. i cant contact anybody cuz i only have five numbers written on paper.
1. i feel like miss stoneage. i miss the feeling of checking my phone whenever im bored and now im binging instead. no phone = eating and watching olympics. boohoo =(
anyway im so glad i nv took neos with melia when i was in sec 1 with my horrible specs. hehehe. i think i look the same lah. xcept with longer hair =)
28 August 2004*22:58
love keeps liftin us higher
shu*
although this is 6 days late....
who would do such a hideous thing!! the great masterpiece from the man MUNCH himself! TSK TSK!! im greatly saddened as an art maker a humble art follower.
check out the article from Reuters..sounds like it's taken out of a desperate p6 trying to make a compo out of 4 picture boxes. haai*
28 August 2004*16:36
love keeps liftin us higher
amelia*
some old memories...
and presenting to you the uncle that i love so much... *grin* (:
poor lizzie and her phone. talking to her now. haha. she's drawing her skull.. i'm doing my maths. i'm bored.
thanks shu* i'm not giving up on myself and don't you do so too alright? loveyou. (:
sec2? xcountry. haha. i think i look the same.
sec3. with dee and company.
shu.amelia.maine in sec3
lizard photo with lizzie! haha. i don't know what we were doing...
our single's club which didn't really work. haha. and our tongue sticker!
jeans day! lala*
spidey!!
27 August 2004*01:20
love keeps liftin us higher
liz*
countdown. 5 days til i get my hand phone back. boo =(
26 August 2004*22:38
love keeps liftin us higher
shu*
Don't lose your way
With each passing day
You've come so far
Don't throw it away
Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story
Faith, hope & glory
Hold on to the truth in your heart
* If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and i
Souls and the wind must
Learn how to bend
Seek out a star
Hold on to the end
Valley, mountain
There is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
Words are swaying
Someone is praying
Please let us come home to stay
(Repeat *)
When we are out there in the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark we'll feel the light
Warm our hearts,
Every one
If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by
For you and i
this song is dedicated to all AEP and GAP students students out there, esp. from nanyang. others will never truly comprehend the kind of torture we put ourselves through to produce art, the mental and emotional strain that only got worse as the deadline for coursework draws near. the eager anticipation of completion and the satisfaction that none other can give as when an artwork is completed. we've come so far, worked so hard. it's time to end it with a bang. dont give up, everyone out there.. it's just a lil while more to go. just a little bit more, just a few days more, just a few nights more, and just those disgusting eyebags, which will, trust me, disappear upon completion. look at guat and tian.
happy.
WE CAN DO IT TOO!!
melia darling, pls dont be so upset, for whatever reason that you are. girl ah. i noticed k. dont think you're invisible just cause you're like the "lightest" colour in our group (how ironic. i always thought you were dense). anw. *huuug. we love you and dont give up on yourself k?
When we are out there in the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark we'll feel the light
Warm our hearts,
Every one
tidbit: did you know that this song, "If We Hold On Together" by Diana Ross was from the year 1988? how symbolic!
26 August 2004*01:47
love keeps liftin us higher
amelia*
sorry for the attitude i gave during art today if anyone even notices. but yeah. sorry. i don't even know what and why am i apologizing for. *sheesh*
might be gone on hiatus for a while. my studies is currently drowning and i need to save it. bye.
25 August 2004*23:55
love keeps liftin us higher
liz*
i decided to draw skulls. alice is a sadistic evil little thing looking for skull pictures to draw. will they penalise me cuz its not first hand?
skulls =)
25 August 2004*22:09
love keeps liftin us higher
amelia*
can u believe this??! MASS PONNING from us four!! haha. and 5 others in class. the teachers must be wondering where we have vanished to. haha.
i hope u guys have made full use of this time and are studying or doing art hor. haha. i'm super tired now cuz i did one whole day of maths. okae...not really the whole day. 7 hrs i suppose?
mummy's making me drink chicken essence again... why isn't shuying my SISTER!! so i can feed her and make her drink the all-so-yucky stuff which she thinks is nice. ewwww*
and for your info..i'm sOOoO sporting PINK today. i'm wearing my pink hairband. my rubberband is pink. pink spag and pink jacket! *gdness.
see you guys tml! rmb to bring your pe teeshirt hor. (:
ps..there's this strange unknown person tagging on my board.
24 August 2004*21:41
love keeps liftin us higher
-
For you who are born under the Sign of Couleurs, hide not from the forces of nature! As the Artlaxies line up, arm yourself against the calamitous House of Preps with plentiful power stones such as Le Observatios or similarly, Omposicions.
For more ammunition, add a full vial of MegaChile into half a cauldron full of Coke de Vanilla. Dropwise, slowly add Pon-essence until colouring turns dirty green. Stop adding the essence at this instant but continue to fill up the cauldron with Cryla mediums. When almost full, use an Ashley soaked overnight in linseed to stir the potion well.
Bear in heart you shall that this mixture is to be taken immediately before you retire to your abode. Excruciating contraction of your gut is essential for the down-under retching of deleterious elements, of which the process would deem you unfit for a full length confrontation with planets such as Tinlady, In The End, Isn't Tit?
However, bear in mind that in midweek when the power of evil soars to its highest, surrender yourself to Her for you shall die a Mock-ing death in about 2 weeks on the 2nd last day of the week, IF you don't.
For more divinations, please visit www.to-whom-it-may-concert.net
24 August 2004*09:58
love keeps liftin us higher
amelia*
and here are the remaining photos taken in school... i hope the dimensions are better this time. and they better be..cuz i compared them to the original ones. (:
and here are photos of shu at vball farewell party..
oh. and before i forget...presenting to you MANGO!!
uploading photos are indeed tiring. *sigh. we should just use shutterfly instead. haha. and shu just sms-ed me to say she has her 6610i. grrr.
shu's fav photo. her with liz with balloons.
pq.huili and maine surrounded by colourful things that 'pop'! :P
alice..
shu and ziying. she says she has a tiny face...and you look different with your parting!!
the four of us trying hard to study chem.
shu's attempt at a self portrait with germ.
liz trying hard to look dao...
haha. crazy maine and dao liz
couleurs without me!! shu says i MUST be sleeping. grrrr.
too much influence from her canvas?? acting like a tiger. RawrrRrr.
maine..again looking abit sparstic.
pq with balloons!! (:
eunice and shu
pamela and shu
shu and cheryl with funky hair!! and yacong peeking
jingwen and chunli
23 August 2004*08:02
love keeps liftin us higher
graafy*liz
as usual im a bit slooow lah. but alice shall grace the blog again.
anyway yes he is a cheaterbug. ho tzu nyen is a cheaterbug. cheater cheater cheater bug. oh amelia i just came back frm studying and am now in the art room using the imac and guess wad? mr lim saw me blogging = he said he wu hua ke shuo so i shall continue to blog.
chemistry prelims are on the day after tmr! good luck guys and do your best ok? dun burn your hair cuz it will never grow back again =
and i start to detest nanyang papers. it is super jian and cunning and moronic and only prcs are allowed lor. so guys to not be demoralised..dun start with nanyang papers k? do something else first =)
ok mrs teo is in the room and i dun dare to print my research out from the super nice printer.
so before i end my entry. wish ya all good luck from exams and thanks fo the balloons shu =) i just composed an alphabetical song and i think i will further explore my song writing talent. tada~lovelies
22 February 2040*08:17
love keeps liftin us higher
amelia*
i'm super exhausted now. but i'll just upload the pics for the sake of uploading them. not sure if i can make it thru the whole entry. *hai. pq it's all your fault!! now shu wants me to upload my pics on the blog too. still have to add the height and width length. ):
shall continue with the others tml. my eyelids are getting the better of me. bye.
pastel and inky.
those two carrying balloons.
i think that's me sleeping...
alice trying to kachiao me from my deep slumber. grrr.
alice and maine with balloons.
21 August 2004*01:26
love keeps liftin us higher
shu*
i like those square biscuits with lots and lots of sugar on top one. i like it alot.. :D yummy!
today was a horrible day! sigghh..i mean, it was raining and all, and i was stuck at the bus stop! didnt have a single cent with me and the rain was coming in. totally freezing in my transparent hongzi and i had no umbrella to cross the bridge to take bus to town.
so i called for help but when it came, the rain stopped. how nice. i mean, even x-country was cancelled cus of the rain. seriously, imagine slooshing in the mud and getting our trainers all eeky yucky. ):
and so i went to meet maine melia and bb at cine. i really cant rmbr doing anything productive. just walked arnd and looked and oooo and aaahh and all. esp at kino. manga paradise!
it was only at orchard station that i realised i didnt have my wallet with me. maine suggested dumping my whole stuffed bag of wet clothes on the gantry to "test for the presence of ezlink card" but argh. nothing.
so i told her to go first. then i emptied out my stuffed bag. nothing.
so i called for help again. it came quick and i was really relieved to see them. (yes you barbequed beef)ooooh! wait, yes! saw my friend's ex in town. as if tht wasnt bad enough, my ex had to appear out of nowhere. hah!
so anyhow. we looked arnd but couldnt find my wallet. im depressed, present tense. sigh. future tense too i suppose. my darling pink wallet...haai. i just grew to love it more and more. i know. it must be because what mrs chua said came true. i didnt tell my wallet i loved it enough. and it departed from me, and the living are often left with regrets, she said.
And whereupon the soul flew from the body.
okay that was extra.
oh yes! we were at kino and i was reading poems to the rest. haha. were at the lit section. and there was like this suppperrrrrr ra book. a book of love poems, and not just any type. but sexual ones. geee. it was totally ra. and then i found this love haiku book. nice! (:
back to my wallet story. so i couldnt find it and hence lost my ezlink card. so i have to like replace it tmr. costs me 19 bucks for a blank card. but at least i can change the photo lah. haha! so SOMEONE can stop commenting on its supposed cuteness.
its such a long day. my thoughts are like incoherent now. i wonder what my boys are doing. sleeping maybe. sigh.
21 August 2004*00:02
love keeps liftin us higher
amelia*
what's worse than falling sick one day before your oral exams? falling sick on the day itself!!. but shu wasn't present in school for me to strangle her. so i shall just simply drop the idea. haha.
oral was badbadbad. i couldn't even hear myself. but thankgod i wasn't sneezing inside. my voice just felt different. and one thing to learn. never say 'yes' when the examiner prompts you.. 'is that all?'. i'm just gonna do very badly for my orals lar. haiyah. fancy me getting cold feet for english orals when i'm just perfectly fine for that in my whole entire 16 years. bahh. for once.. i had nothing to say. nothing really came out of my mouth. and i don't noe what i'm babbling about as a matter of fact. argh.
hope maine did well.
wishing liz and shu will do well too. (:
17 August 2004*22:48
love keeps liftin us higher
shu.coughs*
yaay! im blogging again! its tues 7.08am, one day before my orals and im like. coughing at home now. ): sigh. to think that i spent 4 years trying to perfect my speech, only to lose it to..a cough! baaah. see? that's why everyone out there, mug if you need to, but dont neglect your health. you dont want to fall ill at the most critical moment! some shoutouts:
pyeo: dont worry girl im okay and still in one piece (pun not intended). so sorry cannot meet up with you that day, we spent our time walking down town, but i had to go soon aftr. next time then dearest, let you see until you dont want to see anymore k? :D
alice: eh woman, nice song! hahahaha. a lovely, touching and poignant tribute to my favouritest teachers of all time!
spidey: hahahha. riiiiiiight.
melia: eh the baby blues is nice. but i like calvin and hobbes actually.
maine: hello there dear! so did you get the lovely stars from concourse? and can you believe we're starting a trend, igniting flames of childhood passion in the ppl arnd us. read: cheesecake and pp. :D yay! we rock!
j: hey! you havent tagged in a billion years..*huug. we go out aftr the prelims k dear? (:
alrighty. done.
so anw, all aeppers out there, fret not, he's just a C-H-E-A-T-E-R-B-U-G!!! grrrrrrrrrrr!!! im so angry lor. ):
17 August 2004*07:06
love keeps liftin us higher
amelia*
speciallydedicatedtomy dearest darling...
shuying!! thanks for the balloon gurl!! you totallie made my day today. i'm so happy i'm grinning like this ==> :D love you so much! *hug and it's pink!! the bright pink! haha. sorry i left it in sch to deflate a bit today but i'm bringing my darling balloon home tml. wheee~
and you know wad?? shuying passed me MnM's chocs too! oOoo.. just the way i like it. all brown! yumyum* i'm a happy girl (:
i think u took some photos while i'm sleeping..haha. let me see k! and we can post our photo here!
13 August 2004*21:47
love keeps liftin us higher
amelia*
shuying..
don't worry k dear? i know things will turn out right eventually for you. (; *hug* here's something to lighten up ur mood!
lizzie gurl..ur song is so super hilarious!! haha. how come i don't know the song-writing talent hidden in you?? haha. and for your info..i am dying too. sigh. let's all die together then at least u won't be so bored.
and to maine..hope your emac wakes up soon alright? concentrate on your painting first. and that's good. cuz there will be more ppl in the art room now instead of in the com lab. haha.
u three wanna join me on my art camp on sat? (:
12 August 2004*22:19
love keeps liftin us higher
madamoiselle*
guys what am i doing here?! haai. oh well just blogging for the kicks i guess. nenneh i read ur entry and i dunno if you interpreted as a negative thing because it wasnt. whatever happened did not come out as bad or something for me to spite at. maybe its my tone lar..then u infered too much. or maybe its the social studies =P
anyway this is my anti coursework and anti bio song (sing it to accidentally in love by counting crows)
teacher:so you say whats the problem, alice?
me:whats the problem, dont you know why i am doing art
why think about it everytime
think about it can't stop thinking bout it
so i am doing bio prac on thursdays
wondering if my teacher is going to explain
no, she doesnt even come now, doesnt even teach us properly
cmon cmon prelims coming nearer
cmon cmon my world is coming under
cmon cmon so everybody's talking about work
i am dying in sec 4
i am dying in sec 4
so am i born to bear this
all those a math tests that happens on the fridays
oh and the chemistry lessons
in which my lovely teacher isnt really there
dear mrs yong please get well
we really want you back now
come and help us out
oh we cant get used to our teachers
dear mrs yong please come back come back now
(repeat chorus)
12 August 2004*20:22
love keeps liftin us higher
shu*
10 August 2004*20:14
love keeps liftin us higher
amelia*
we forgot to take a couleurs picture today again! haha. maybe nxt time then. thanks u guys for coming over. i had fun dancing. lala (: sorry for the uncooked chicken. *laughs* i forgot the timing for steaming them.
ps. practise dance steps! we're so gonna have a blast!
10 August 2004*18:53
love keeps liftin us higher
shu*
instant gratification,
immediate blindness,
eternal sin.
10 August 2004*08:28
love keeps liftin us higher
sunday is a happy day =)
im so happy to see my ex classmates =)its been sooo long and the best thing is they havent changed much so i still feel its like the good old days =D oh melia we took like super spastic neoprints i show tmr k? its been a relaxed weekend and as much as i hate the feeling of not doing my mugging but still friends are still more impt righty?
can i confess..i din practice the dance moves =
ohh and thankew meiqi for accompanying me for the late service. *luv ya
lizzie
09 August 2004*19:35
love keeps liftin us higher
shu*
Wise men say only fools rush in
but I can't help falling in love with you
Shall I stay
would it be a sin
If I can't help falling in love with you
"a match may be made in Heaven, but the details need to be worked out on earth"
08 August 2004*15:24
love keeps liftin us higher
mademoiselle wakes up
today is sunday and its nine now. yes i woke up late. really late and i was so darn sad =( but nvm im gonna for a later service =) haha..next week it cant happen cuz its my church's anniversary! it had been two plus yrs already and really i have grown so much during that time. just thinking i used to be like so sheltered and protected, you know those who never really seen the ugly side of the people and now, i cant say i've been there, done that, cuz i didnt and i dont want to, but at least i have definitely wisen up and become not so dumb anymore. haha.
which suddenly reminds me to dedicate a few people that really shaped me to toughen up and stuff. firstly it would be the bunch of two fourteeners in sec 1 and 2. yes although u were kinda bitchy but it din kill me but made me stronger. really. i mean i used to think that if you dun do anything bad, the whole world would be this perfect little circle where good things will come to you like a cycle. that is so ideal but sadly untrue. next i wanna thank a few anonymous people that really taught me to see things in a different light. not that i cant see but i guess everybody needs that little angel to guide you thru this cynical world. sometimes you are so blurred you dun actually realise the fact is people are ugly. and it adds on to the fact that im naturally a bit sotong.
ok next is to couleurs! my bunch of nutty cutey gal pals that kickass =) im really glad to be in this foursome and our bonding is just so special =) having a bunch of close friends really changes everything. it doesnt matter how big your social life is because the few friends really make your day. *love ya
which brings me to another phase. my friend stephanie came to singapore for a really short visit and she goes way back in hong kong, flying to denmark, m'sia and back and forth. i was so glad to see her and im really happy she hasnt really change because unless you have a strong character you really dont know what international schools will do to you. we just had a really great time and i stayed with her till shops closed down town with a bunch of friends and during our way home we really talked. it was the best talking experience with her that day because she told me about her stuff and all i just wanna say is that its not glitzy or cool to be in international schools because it is just not. i realised that its not only her and also really about me. the childhood experience of being in an int'l sch actually kills you if you arent strong enough. not that i did not enjoy it because i really loved it. serious but its just that in such environment people come and go so fast, just like my friend. singapore schs are so different, the most is only people switching schs but basically everybody's here. but in my sch at that time people literally go everywhere in a really short spam and it is so darn hard to make genuine friendships because you are so afraid you are never gonna see them again and it really makes you wonder whats the point. they are gonna leave you some day. my best friend left in second grade and a few others too. and maybe thats why until now, it was really hard for me to really trust people and bond with them cuz that mindset has already sunk in. i guess sometimes you are so afraid that they might just fly away to some who knows where and really it hurts. that feeling is unbearable and i can say it took me alot of tears to not cry at someone's departure. really wanna dedicate this to you abi. although i might not be the bestest of buds with you but you know its so much better now with email and stuff. distance is just nonexistant. i really hope that you do really well there and whatever it is keep in touch by blogging and stuff so at least we know you are still here.
ok 9.23 and i gotta go to catch the bus. it just been a week of reflecting and stuff and i really dont know if i still want to go overseas next time. ~tada
p.s i guess i will never actually feel the missing link until you are gone. will miss ya abi =)
08 August 2004*08:57
love keeps liftin us higher
shu*
i really just wanna blog abt my crazy long and fun and exhilarating day. but reading the previous post has got me all..weighed down again. the crying session at ndp was. heartbreaking. i couldnt even look at you. look at you without the tears swelling up in my already swollen eyes. sigh. why why why i question. but things happen for a reason i guess. ive always taken you for granted. i did. i always knew somehow you'll shout from the other side of the class.."SHUYING! DONT EAT IN CLASS!" and then the next day im doing it again. or i'll do smth wrong then you'll be all crossed. but you never lost your temper. sitting at the same table with you the past 2 years for aep has been...one of faint memories. faint as in, you were always there, always just a few seats away. we were never close, i'll just hear you speak. laugh and smile at your amazing humour. and you tell us you're leaving. and i regret i never joined in the crazy fun you brought to ppl. guess you never know what you've got til you lose it. i love you very much. sigh
thanks going out to alice for being my personal dance instructor today. and melia for risking her poor ankle to help think (very hard) of dance steps. and maine for. errr. loving me. lala.
so anyhow. had bio mock today which i really couldnt be bothered to study for. complacency gets to my head. and i was like..totally starving the whole 2 hours of dance prac.
wanna know whats more exciting, heart stopping and nerve wrecking than the best roller coaster ride in the world?
taking a cab with not enough money. my heart was like thumping like mad. i mean. not like i was in a mad rush for time. so the logical thing to do is to get off when i run out of credit. but. i HAD to be on the expressway. choa chu kang was nowhere in sight when i realised that i only had a credit of..abt 2 bucks left. gdness. so i kept staring at the meter and counting down every single cents i had left. i almost froze when it dropped to just 50cents. AND I WAS STILL ON THE EXPRESSWAY! gosh. just when i thought i've gotta sell my autograph to the cabby so that i have enough cash to pay, i caught a glimpse of the sliproad. PHEW. 30 cents left. as he made a turn to the left, the red light HAD to come on. oh maaan, the painful 30 secs was. well. painful. and so when he got past the traffic light i was like. ehhh, uncle stop here. he was like shocked cus i just asked him to stop like, out of nowhere. as he pressed the button to tally up the fare, i held on to my only piece of red and only piece of green note with nervousness in its purest essence.
the flashing 15.00 was godsend.
07 August 2004*20:09
love keeps liftin us higher
amelia*
if.just if.time could just rewind..i would have change the fate of yours. so u wouldn't have to go. wouldn't have to leave. wouldn't have to part. and everyone who loves you will be glad. but i know that is not possible cuz everyone has their own life to live. their own goal to reach. their dreams to relish. but...i'm so gonna miss you abi.
just crying while writing this... crying when i see everyone's sad faces on the thought of u leaving is not enough to tell you how much i will miss you so. you've been a great friend of mine. really. and i long to hear that i have been a great friend of yours as well.
it's alright if you don't rmb me in the years to come. it's alright if we don't talk anymore. it's alright if you don't see me anymore. but i just wanna let you know that i will always rmb you. i'll always be there when u need me..inseparable we will be. and as long as i rmb the memories created with you my dear friend. i'm content.
i will miss your crazy antics. our knocking elbows. the times back then in sec1 and 2 with joy and our banana project. how i've seen you grown abi. though slight changes on the outside.. i admire the way u make things so much more interesting than it seems. everything will just be nonchalent without you. i envy how people embrace and love you so much. but above all ppl. i love you.
i love you more than you can imagine.
07 August 2004*01:42
love keeps liftin us higher
amelia*
nothing ever gets into my head when i study for biology. *sob
07 August 2004*01:07
love keeps liftin us higher
shu*
please please please? please..dont give up....please?
06 August 2004*22:42
love keeps liftin us higher
shu*
to shuying who has just completed her overnight d&p crash course!! and guessss what! she slept!! wheee! :D uuuh. yes it IS 6.12am now.
04 August 2004*06:10
love keeps liftin us higher
shu*
i feel so guilty for breaking her heart always.
its 12.14am now and i havent done concept. great.
04 August 2004*00:14
love keeps liftin us higher
germ*
in about 23 hours, it'll be all over. our hopeless marathon with art. hais, guess people like baby and peachy won't be sleeping. i don't like my attitude, but who cares about my who-cares attitude. basically, i'm nonchalant. inks need their beauty sleep or they will flow away.
tmr, i'll be using ink to cover my background of my killer d&p paper. it's called a "quick-fix" method (so calls ms. yik) hais i just want it to be over. i think i'm gonna flunk it. but whatever.
i need to get on with my life.
03 August 2004*18:06
love keeps liftin us higher
amelia*
my shading pencils are playing hide and seek with me! hrmphs! even inanimate objects have to work against me. this is just so infuriating. bleah.
i'm so sorry maine inky for that sudden phone call at night. did i scare you? hope not. just wanna thank you for being so calm and trying hard to calm me down as well. THANKS SO MUCH!.. though i was busy sniffing away. *sigh
and shu.. THANKYOU for that sweet sms. it's been ages since a friend of mine send me these kinda sweet msgs that makes my eye twinkle. i guess i've waited long enough. haha. loveyou.
paintmyworldinhuesofgrey
03 August 2004*00:56
love keeps liftin us higher
madamoiselle*
hahaha there was actually my pic shown in the side alonside germs but clever me edited it! =) haha so u dun see me anymore =) anyway tmr is pretty shiified cuz we have chem chinese and ART! *gasps* and germ is sitting next to me tmr =) and we are SO going to be motivated to study and work HARD. harder than you-know-who and we are NOT going to sing/talk/copy work/slack/disturb the class because laoshi will scold us and our prelims are coming O.o
anyway i must update the bimbo cheer. i dun care. ever since we had the colourful nicknames (refer to our side profiles) this is very appropriate. lala*
i say hey couleurs what are we?
pasty inky baby graphy
red blue yellw green
cadmium red and pretty pink
peach and rose
way to go
we are colours of the rainbow
we're ditzy we're cute
we love a photoshoot
short skirts great hair
we dont need you to stare
no bimbos just brains
we'll win in every game
cmon couleurs knock em couleurs *woooo*
hehe. isnt it a great cheer =P
oh another one coming up and its a song with anti-aep sentiments ~tada
02 August 2004*16:31
love keeps liftin us higher
shu*
its such an exciting day today cus i got to think about how in the freaking world im supposed to finish THREE weeks worth of art in TWO pathetic days. ooo yea.
and i mean, we only have chi test tmr, whole of 2b and chem mock paper 2. yay! im sooooo happy i dont mind dying of happiness right now, in front of the eMac.
i wish i could.
wish i could savour my vanilla ice cream once more.
does it make one fat? hmmm.
02 August 2004*16:29
love keeps liftin us higher
amelia*
hey my darlingg sistas! new month! couleurs is 1 month old! yayy. (: and mainemaine...u have to come up with a name for urself alright?
ilovemaine.iloveliz.iloveshu.
01 August 2004*01:37
love keeps liftin us higher
